Monday, August 8, 2011

Tennessee's Sweet Melanie.

There are many experiences I could share from the mission trip to Nashville I took last week but one specifically stands out. Typically I don’t spend much time thinking about the evil spirits that are around me all the time but I know that the bible tells us that there are such spirits and what we need to do if we happen upon one.

Revelation 12:9

And the great dragon was thrown down, that ancient serpent, who is called the devil and Satan, the deceiver of the whole world—he was thrown down to the earth, and his angels were thrown down with him.”

His (Satan) angels refer to demons, spirits of darkness that are all around us all the time. Even Jesus told the spirits to get behind him.

Matthew 16:23

Jesus turned and said to Peter, “Get behind me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the concerns of God, but merely human concerns.”

As I was serving along side six Godly people I do believe that God allowed us to experience what He has warned us about in scripture in regards to demons. I can’t say that I have ever experienced a real demon but in this situation I am pretty sure that Satan had a foothold on a seemingly sweet and gentle mentally handicapped women.

We were doing service projects on the property of a residential home for mentally handicapped adults, in the hills of Tennessee. Each adult that lived there was kind, sweet and had a very gentle spirit about them. They were fun to talk to, helpful and lacked any kind of sarcasm or negative attitude, it was refreshing.

All was good until our team sat down to do our devotions right after lunch. We sat outside at a picnic table in a valley between two mountains, with the shade of the trees somewhat protecting us from the 100 degree weather and the heat of the sun, ready to learn an important lesson from God’s word.

The male residents often came out and joined us listening and then sweetly participating in our prayer time. But where our story becomes a little unsettling is when our sweet orchestra loving Melanie joined us.

Melanie who was sweet as can be all day literally became a different person two days in a row while we were doing our devotions. The first day as soon as I started reading the devotion she started talking in a different voice, a deep upset sounding voice, rambling words we all knew but in a matter that did not make any sense. The first day we didn’t think too much about it. But the second day was a difference story.

Our team decided to forgo lunch on this day, because we had spent so much time with the residents playing Whiffle ball, yes Whiffle ball, we were running out of time to complete our work. God had us there for the people, the work could be completed by the other volunteers that were coming the following week. So we decided we would have our devotion time at the same place we had the prior days. Moments before I started reading a very powerful devotion Melanie began acting like a witch, holding her hands up in a clawing fashion and saying in a scary witchy voice, “I am a bad witch, I’m bad.” She continued this for a few minutes until her voice then changed into a ferocious barking sound, holding her leather purse between her teeth and shaking her head back and forth like a dog. She then started licking the table, which was very old with splinters and had bird droppings on it. The whole time she was behaving this way she was standing just behind my left shoulder, while the rest of my group was facing me (and her) as I led the devotion. Honestly, I thought she was going to bite me. The Holy Spirit was definitely hovering over us during this time. I was able to focus on the reading, and everyone else was able to focus on the thoughts at hand. As we continued on to the heart of the devotion we were all able to put the behavior of Melanie out of our minds and be thoughtful of the participation part of the devotion. When we were finished and getting ready for prayer Melanie stopped acting like a dog and the powerful wind that started blowing during our devotion stopped. A calm and peace came over our picnic table, which now had six additional residents that had joined us, as we began to pray as a group the residents also prayed, including Melanie. While she prayed she spoke in a sweet kind voice and we never saw her dark side again.

The first night we were assigned our groups, I was a little confused about why my group had so many “older” students in it and three out of seven of us were leaders, I know now that God purposed us to be there and for us to experience spiritual warfare. It would have been very easy to just skip over our devotion time {instead of skipping lunch}, it would have been easy to go where the residents couldn’t join us, it would have been easy to just give up when there were so many scary distractions but the team God placed there would not have given up.

As we reflected on the week’s events we all agreed that God had allowed some evil spirits to dwell in the area of Cave Springs. Satan was at work trying very hard to get us to give up, be distracted, to be discouraged to be scared and to react in a non-Godly way. We could have made the residents leave us alone, {side story, the residents seemed fearful of the lady that was in charge, she would have shewed them away if we would have asked her to} but it never crossed our minds.

We were reminded that day that God’s word is not wasted pages of nonsense. The Bible is a God inspired book intended for us to not just read but to live by. It’s a book full of warnings, encouragement, affirmations and instructions. We were given the opportunity during our visit to Cave Springs to trust that God was with us as He has told He would be.

"For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline."
1 Timothy 1:7

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

I have to get this out...I'm sorry if it seems harsh.

"If you've gotten anything at all out of following Christ, if his love has made any difference in your life...if you have a heart... then do me a favor: Agree with each other, love each other, be deep-spirited friends...Put yourself aside, and help others get ahead. Don't be obsessed with getting your own advantage. Forget yourself long enough to lend a helping hand." Philippians 2:1-4 the msg

Well, I am going to go off on a tangent…If you call yourself a Christian…a little Christ…. an imitator of Christ…then why do you have so much hostility in your life?

I am a little frustrated by conversations with people that complain all the time. Don’t get me wrong I know there is a time for heated discussions; problem solving and disagreements can be very productive, heartfelt convictions can be very hard to keep to ourselves but complaining as your main point of conversation. NO.

If you have a problem and you share it with someone and they try to help you…they are being Christ-like {Ephesians 4:9}. If you want to constantly talk about how others are failing you {Romans 15:1} …people are going to stop listening. If you complain all the time about how another Christian is not doing something the way you would…{Philippians 2:14} then be a part of the solution or walk away. If you have had more than one conversation about how Jesus doesn’t like tattoos {2 Corinthians 10:7}.... you have not gotten out enough to see how many people Jesus loves that have tattoos. If you can’t take a few hours to help a widow work around her house {James 1:7} …. then your life must be way more important than Jesus ever thought possible. If you can’t love others because they have sin in their life {Romans 3:23}…then you don't understand that we all have sin in our life.

I know that God is a just God and that God calls us to make judgments every single day…judgments on our own behavior not on the behaviors of others. Yes, we have to be discerning, we need to be wise, we need to careful whom we allow to influence us but I am telling you right now…Jesus wants us to put others before ourselves. Which means that sometimes we need to just love, respect, help, and accept people for who they are and pray that their journey in life will lead them to the place that God wants them.

I am disappointed and shocked at how many people that consider themselves followers of God are so thoughtless with their words and lack of deeds. I think it’s time to re-evaluate “What Would Jesus Do.”

For further reading to encourage your decision to live more Christ like check out Romans 12!!

Friday, July 1, 2011



to relieve (a substance) of pressure

or (of a substance) to be relieved of pressure

After a few months of going strong….I needed a day of “decompression”: a day to unload my burdens on to the strong shoulders of a God...willing to take it all. Every concern that had been lying heavy on my heart was just handed over to God. Seriously, it’s a genuine feeling of pressure that I get in my chest when life is starting to weigh me down. It’s like the pressure built up inside of a balloon, the balloon can only take so much air pressure before it bursts and crashes. That’s how my heart was beginning to feel…like it was going to explode. But it’s so easily dealt with…. God has asked me to lay my burden on Him.

Matthew 11:28

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest."

Well, God has asked many things of me and this is one I have learned to do. It has taken many years but I have finally become experienced at handing it all over and walking away. God can take the pressures of my life and turn them into something beautiful…. and that is what He has done. Over and over and over again. Here are a few examples that I can share.

My daughter leaving the country for six months, with only a portion of the support she needed. Burden.

God takes the worry from my heart because I know He actually loves her more than I ever could, He wants the best for her so He took care of every detail, and she came home safe with a heart full of faith and a new outlook on God’s provisions and blessings.

My family. There are seven in my immediate family, seven lives that are going in many different directions: safety, finances, personal and spiritual growth, the future and health are just a few of the things I am constantly thinking about when it comes to my family. Stress.

God takes each life and shapes it for His purpose all I have to do is stay in prayer and encourage each of them to pursue Him…God does all the work!!

My job. This year has been crazy where I work, people resigning, people moved from position to position, I was put in a new position, working with people’s most important treasures, their children, this comes with a huge responsibility, it can become heavy on my heart. Worry.

God takes the pressure away...He moves me into ‘another’ new position with better hours and increased pay. God’s plan is the best.

Student ministry. Building relationships with high school students is one of the most rewarding things I have ever done, but truth be told…. I feel an urgency to help them see God’s plan for themselves and my heart breaks for them on occasion. I often wish I could just take their pain away. Concern.

God takes their pain and will turn it into something beautiful, love and encouragement for others, if not now….someday. God has allowed me to be a part of the lives of some really incredible teenagers, that I have no doubt will do big things for Him and some of them already have!

These are just a few of the thoughts that go through my head daily…yes, daily I think of all of these things hoping and praying that God will continue to have His hand in each situation. And guess what? He has it all under control. The more I have learned that God has a plan for each aspect of my life the easier it has become to leave these situations at His feet and walk away. There is no need for me to worry, which is something else I use to do, but not any more!!! Why do I need to worry when the Creator of all things wants me to hand it all over to Him?

Matthew 6:34
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough

trouble of its own.


Thursday, June 2, 2011

“See, I am sending an angel ahead of you to guard you along the way and to bring you to the place I have prepared." Exodus 23:20

Wow, this is a verse full of insight.
Yes, God has prepared the way for me.

I have read the book of Exodus a couple of times throughout my life, how did I miss the power of this verse? This verse should be all l need to have faith and to trust God with my life. In my heart I believe that God goes ahead of me and prepares the way, but I allow my head to tell me differently sometimes. I allow worry, anxiety and too much planning to get in the way of moving forward with what God wants me to do.

God has given me many opportunities to be a part of His plan but sometimes I miss out on the blessing because I worry too much about the details, what people will think, can I afford it, will I have the right words, will I have time, will I have the energy, do I want to open myself up to criticism, and asking myself, “what if I fail?” When I go through all of these doubts, time passes and then the opportunity is gone. Fortunately for me God never gives up and eventually gives me another opportunity. He has set up situations for me to be a part of so in the end His name will be glorified.

Throughout the years it’s my thinking that has had to be refined and in this refining process God has entrusted me with many meaningful experiences in which His name is the only name that could be glorified, with out Him I am nothing. Situations that are so obviously set up by God that sometimes I am just amused that I would have questioned Him to start with and that I would have the audacity to think that He wouldn’t give me the courage, the strength, the time, the money, or a positive mind set to just do what it is He has planned. Life with God is a process, it’s clear that I take one step forward and two, three or four steps backward but the remarkable thing is, God always gives me another chance. He is determined to show me that He is real, trustworthy, available, loving, kind, creative, powerful {the list of His goodness is endless} and He has invited me to have a small part in His creative plan to spread the Good news of His mercy & grace.

Ephesians 2:10 For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

God has it all set up, I just need to trust that He is going to give me what I need to follow through with His plan, why would God set up an opportunity for me, and expect me to do it on my own or give me just a portion of what I need to follow through with it, He just doesn’t work that way. When we hear that small still voice nudging us to do something good it’s God giving us an assignment, it may seem small or it may seem overwhelmingly hard, but no matter the size of the task God gives us what we need to follow it through ‘til the end.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Knowing God has a plan.

1 Corinthians 2:11

“The Spirit, not content to flit around on the surface, dives into the depths of God, and brings out what God planned all along. Who ever knows what you're thinking and planning except you yourself? The same with God except that he not only knows what he's thinking, but he lets us in on it. God offers a full report on the gifts of life and salvation that he is giving us. We don't have to rely on the world's guesses and opinions. We didn't learn this by reading books or going to school; we learned it from God, who taught us person-to-person through Jesus, and we're passing it on to you in the same firsthand, personal way.”

It’s not like I haven’t heard this concept before but for some reason today it is resonating in my head more than usual. When I stop and think over the last few years of my life I can see that I have taken this concept more seriously than in the past. When we ask God for something, we need to be prepared for Him to change our line of thinking. That’s it. The words look so simple but humanly speaking it’s very difficult.

If I pray for healing for someone I know is dying from cancer, I know God can cause that to happen, but He may choose not to, does that mean He is not real or He doesn’t care about me or the person I am praying for, no, not at all, it’s just that He has a different plan, a better one.

For me in the last few years I have realized that God does have my best interest in mind and whatever circumstance He allows me to be in, He believes I can live through it. And of course He has been right. There have been numerous situations that I have experienced that had I been told ahead of time what was going to happen I would have said, “No way I could never do that, I won’t , I can’t, or you have got to be kidding, me?” The more I ask God for clarity, the more vivid He makes His plans. All along it’s been me, “oh ye of little faith”, I guess that’s where that came from. But as my faith has grown, my awareness of God has grown and the more my awareness grows the more I can see that God changes us, changes us to see things through His eyes.

I can think of about ten different situations from the last year or so that I prayed sincerely for things to be one way, and they turn out a different way, a better way, a more exciting way. The mystery of God’s plan is actually quite adventurous. Waiting and watching for God to move keeps life very interesting. What we call “last minute” God calls right on time, who we call “annoying” God calls us to love, what we call “impossible” God calls easy, what we call a “surprise” God calls a well thought out plan. Just when we think we have God all figured out He opens our eyes to a whole new aspect of Himself.

What could be more exciting than to see what the Creator of the universe has planned for me? After all the beauty He has created, He is the one I want to fashion my life.

Romans 8:37-39 "No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

Friday, April 29, 2011

Random Acts of Kindness!

Random acts of kindness.


Intentional reminders of God’s love

So many thoughts are running through my mind right now, I will try to organize them to get my point across! My point…God is real and is at work around us, we just have to be willing to engage Him. We have to want Him to be a part of our life; He is not going to force himself on us. But wow, when you ask God to be a part of your life and you watch for Him to show up, He ALWAYS does.

This is how God showed up this time.

I use the word “random” because people understand

what I am talking about BUT I do not really believe in

“randomness”, I believe that God goes ahead of us

preparing for us to be a part of His game plan!!

INTENSIONAL Reminders to others of God’s love.

Our small group decided to do some “random” acts of kindness for a service project. Twelve of us showed up to Salsarita’s to eat together and to decide exactly what we wanted to do. Ten sophomore girls, Lindsay and myself, I laid out an envelope for the girls to put money in if they wanted to contribute financially and then we would decide what we could do based on how much money was collected. While we ate, talked and laughed we decided that we would write some encouragement notes to two types of people: someone from our student ministry and a stranger that would be the recipient of a gift card from Meijer. The girls wrote beautiful notes! (There really isn’t any thing better than a hand written note of encouragement) So we counted the money, $175…. off we went to purchase SEVEN $25 gift cards (as I am writing this I am reminded that the number seven is a significant number to God, of course He gave us enough money to buy 7 gift cards).

The girls went into Meijer two by two, looking for just the right person to engage in conversation. The right person, yes, the person that God had already determined would get a hand written note of encouragement and a $25 gift card! At first it looked like there weren’t too many people there, but then all of sudden all the right people appeared. A handicapped lady who was shopping with her nurse caregiver, a stressed out mom with three little kids, a women who had one item in cart, a family who struck up a conversation with some of our girls and family that had two little boys who were crying and wanted to go home and woman with her daughter. The women with her daughter was just looking at clothes minding her own business when two of our girls struck up a conversation with the two of them.

Each one of these stories has God in it some where, we may never know how that simple card affected someone’s life; maybe no one ever gave them something for nothing, maybe they never had someone give them a hand written note of encouragement, maybe they never had a stranger want to talk to them or smile at them. Only God really knows how hearts were affected that rainy Wednesday night in Rochester Hills, but I do know that the prayers of some sophomore girls were heard and God used them to show His love, they were His hands His feet and they spoke His words.

So back to the un-expecting women with her daughter, they were given a note, gift card and were engaged in conversation. I happen to walk past them as the conversation was ending and the little girl had a huge smile on her face while her and her mom were discussing what just happened!

We went back to the bus and as some of us waited for the others, two girls from our group were walking a mom and her kids to their car and helping her put her purchases in her car!!!

We spent a few minutes sharing stories from the night and then went home. As I was thinking about the night and how blessed I am to be a part of the lives of such exceptional young women, I re-capped the evening in my Facebook status. Within minutes God gave all of us a real dose of the reality of His being, below is the status and comment from a friend:

Ten sophomore girls/two leaders….20 notes of encouragement….Seven $25 gift cards to Meijer….leads to at least 30 unexpected blessings all in less than 2 hours!!! God’s love makes people do crazy things…. like walk up to a perfect stranger and engage them in conversation purely to give them a gift and see a smile come across their face!!! I love my life!

Comment from my facebook friend: “Thanks for doing that! My step-sister-in-law was one of the recipients and was talking about it on FB. It meant so much to her! When she posted the website and I saw it was Woodside, I got the chance to invite her and she wants to come on Sunday! (Has to talk to hubby first, but she believes in "signs" and is really excited!”)

After being blown away once again by God’s creativity and timing I chatted with my friend a little more and couldn’t wait to share this story with our small group. What I love most about God is that He knows (and is ok with) the fact that as humans we sometimes need immediate gratification, so in order for us to see and believe that He is truly at work sometimes He allows us to know right away how the small acts of kindness that we participate in are used for His glory. It’s possible that these small acts of kindness, which really took little effort, can have a life long outcome, but more importantly the possibility of an outcome resulting in an eternity with God. WHO really knows what the words written by the sophomore girls of WBC meant to the heart of a perfect stranger?

These are the details that can be shared publicly, but there are more behind the scene details that God has so beautifully orchestrated, someday those details will be shared…all in God’s perfect timing. The results of these “random” acts of kindness did not only touch the hearts of those who received a gift but the hearts of those who wrote the words and gave the money for them. It’s all God’s plan for us who choose to be a part; God makes a way for us to give what we have to be used for His ultimate goodness.

My life has become so much more exciting since I decided to let God be a real part of it. Is He real? Yep. I see examples of His realness everyday. Seriously, not a day has gone by in the last year, which is when I really started watching, that I have not seen at least one proof of God’s presence.

Random act of kindness


Intentional reminder of God’s love

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

I believe.....

I believe—
that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
I believe—
that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I believe—
that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.
I believe—
that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
I believe—
that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
I believe—
that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
I believe—
that you can keep going long after you can't.
I believe—
that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
I believe—
that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I believe—
that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.
I believe—
that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
I believe—
that money is a lousy way of keeping score.
I believe—
that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
I believe—
that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.
I believe—
that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I believe—
that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I believe—
that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.
I believe—
that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I believe—
that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I believe—
that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I believe—
that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.
I believe—
that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.
I believe—
that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
I believe—
that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
I believe—
that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.
I believe—
that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
I believe—
that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

Author unknown to me but can read my mind.

Sunday, April 3, 2011


“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

John 16:33

Reality is…life is rough. Sometimes we are able to carry on in our daily life with some pleasantries and an attitude of “life goes on” those days are a blessing, sometimes though we just want to hide from life and people. When life stinks you have few options, you can either do something to change it or learn to live with it. But how ever we choose to deal with our life, it's often easier to deal with when it's shared with a friend. God gives us friends to help us through life's little disasters {and the big disasters!}

In many situations we have to learn to live with our difficulties because our life is often intertwined with other people who have life situations that effect us and we need to learn to accept those difficulties as well as our own. Humans are basically a clump of matter riddled with anxiety, self-consciousness, worry, doubt and sin. Although our sins can be forgiven and God doesn’t hold those against us if we accept His gift of forgiveness, but we still have to consider the consequences to our sins, and accept that our humanness often causes us problems that are reflected in our life here on earth.

When we marry and have children (or are a child) we commit ourselves for a life time and in that lifetime there is going to be situations that we are put in that are perplexing, uncomfortable and sometimes embarrassing. When we are a part of any community of people there is going to be conflict, unfairness, and other problematic situations. So what are we to do? Walk away? Stay and be miserable? Make the best out of the life we have? Change our self because of it? Close our self off from the world? What is the answer?

I surely do not claim to have the full answer, but I think that the bible does. Humanly speaking, walking away or closing ourselves off from the world, seems like an easy way to deal with conflict. But from what I understand of the bible, God wants us to use our difficulties (or burdens) to comfort and help someone else. There really is comfort in knowing that someone else can relate to our situation or that there is someone that cares about our situation, but if we keep our lives to ourselves we may never know the struggles of others and they will never know ours.

Should we go around telling everyone we meet the details of our scattered and shattered life and that if they really knew the life we lived they would be mortified? No, I don’t think that is a good idea. But it does seem like there comes a time when a friendship begins to develop that reality can and should be shared. It’s not a true friendship if you only allow a person to see what you want them to, it’s actually kind of fraudulent. We do have different levels of friendships, but when a friendship has been pretty well developed, truth about the ups and downs of life should be shared. Not shared because we want to be a burden or that we want to be a downer or because we want others to feel sorry for us…. but because God tells us to carry each other’s burdens.

"Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ." Galatians 6:2
Every one has difficulties in their life, whether it be relationships that are troubled, illness, finances, dysfunctional families, wayward children or friendships going bad we all have them. So if we all have troubled lives or at least troubles in our lives, then why is it that we don't depend on each other more for help and support, a helping hand or a warm smile? All of these things can make a difference in someone's life.


Friday, April 1, 2011

Sometimes there just aren't the right words to describe God's love for us. He allows us to have difficulties but only to show us the depth of His love. There is no comparison to our daily troubles and the extreme feeling of God's love when we depend on Him for direction, comfort and answers to pray.~~me.
My whole purpose in writing a blog is to have in writing some of the miracles that God has allowed me to be a part of. But I would also like to be able to encourage others by pointing out these sometimes small but sometimes monstrous miracles.
1. an effect or extraordinary event in the physical world that surpasses all known human or natural powers and is ascribed to a supernatural cause.
2. such an effect or event manifesting or considered as a work of god.
3. a wonder; marvel.
So here’s a recent miracle. My daughter Courtney is in Australia and a week ago she was distraught because she did not have the remaining $1700 she needed to go with her team to the second part of her outreach. Her team has been training for three months to go to Thailand. If a team member does not have all of their funds, they stay back and then go to Thailand when their support money comes in. So literally a week ago Courtney still needed $1700, that’s a lot of money. So Courtney, many others and myself began to pray for a quick miracle. With in 24 hours she was given $660 from some of her team members, people started putting money in her Paypal account, and she got a couple of checks in the mail. Then she sent me a note telling me that every time she goes to her bank account she finds she has mis- calculated the money and she has more than what she thought, and instead of needing $200 three days before she leaves, she only needed $23. THEN, the last banking day before she leaves for Thailand, her tax return check came in the mail and I deposited $415 for her. Which covers not only the remaining money but will cover the $150 she had to borrow from a credit card. And money is still coming in, which all go towards the people in Thailand.

All of this to say, God’s timing is always perfect. God could have held back the money from Courtney and if He would have, to me, that means He had a different plan for her, in Australia, but He did not hold back. He gave Courtney more than what she needed, of course He did.

“God can do anything, you know—far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us.”
Ephesians 3:20

The feeling in my gut that I felt when I thought for a second that maybe Courtney would have to stay back, was a real physical ache in my heart. (I have had this feeling before, it’s a real physical feeling right in the middle of my chest, my heart literally aches with pain when it looks like God has other plans for me and those I pray for.) But even this real feeling of pain doesn’t hurt as much as the joy and goodness feels when God answers a prayer with a real tangible answer.
{An answer that clearly exhibits God’s power, grace, mercy and love. }
There are many other tangible answers to pray that I have experienced lately, but because they involve other people and I do respect other’s privacy, these stories will have to be shared in God's timing and that time will come because these stories are how we know our God is real.
What I’ve learned: if I pray I have to be looking for the answer, it’s not always going to be what or where I expect, so I need to look in all directions because my blessing may come in a form that I would have never thought of!
God is so creative.

Monday, March 28, 2011

In Response to: "Deliverer"

Deliverer come set me free

from fear and weakness

Break every chain holding me

insecurity and worry

Deliverer come have Your way

please increase my faith

I surrender to Your rule and reign
obedience: a daily challenge
Where the Spirit of the Lord is

my heart should be

There is freedom

You offer it, I need to take it

Where the Spirit of the Lord is

my soul is

There is healing

please keep reminding me
You say the word and mountains are moved

I have mountains that need to be moved

Oceans and stars stand in awe of You

I do as well

Just say the word and I will be changed

You said it. I changed. I need more change

We'll see Your face and we will not be the same

We see You through the beauty of lives changed
Where the Spirit of the Lord is

I need to be

There is freedom

I need freedom

Where the Spirit of the Lord is

I want to be

There is hope

I want hope to return

Where the Spirit of the Lord is

I need to be

There is healing

Please continue to heal me

Your blood is enough

It's really all I need

To break every chain

Lord, take the chains

Your blood is enough

More than enough

To break every chain

thank you for freeing me.